I havent updated for a while. Been busy since june and I dont really know what to write about. It feels like nothing  I say is interesting for anyone else than me.

Sigh.

Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

drop_down_dead  gave me: Harry Potter, Transe-Gen, wizards, Europe, Friend!

Harry Potter
When the first HP book came out, I decided that I would never open a book written by J.K Rowling. Ever.
Dec '08 - feb '09 I read all the seven books. FAIL. Its reallyreally 's fault.  We started hanging out and he introduced me to wizard rock.  I realized that I would have to read the books to understand the songs, and the band names (I was like Crookshanks, wtf? HOLEY night? wtf? :P). I kinda felt I was missing out on something. TBH, I didnt read the books, I listened to the audio books. Read by Stephen Fry. Took AGES. Harry Potter introduced me to the concept of fandom. And to cute girls. XP

Trans-Gen
Trans-Gen is probably the best forum ever. Ive been a member for 4 years now (or at last three!) and active for at least 2. I dont care about national swedish support forums, or LJ communities for FtMs. Trans-Gen is the win.

Wizards
We are wizard. Wizard is my subculture.

Europe
Its a continent. Many european countries is a part of the european union. I dont like the european union.
Europe is complex. From the dry and hot spain to the icy svalbard. I'm glad I wasnt born in Australia. too hot.

Friend
<3

I know I should write something here. I havent updated my LJ for years. Heck, even reallyreally who's life is busier than an anthill manages to update every once in a while. Hah.

Lets see, well. I've been on hormones for, uhm, 2 months now (or its two months on the 15th, but anyway ;p), and I'm almost two weeks post-op. My chest is greenish. It doesnt hurt, too much. My voice is changing. Some days its extremely annoying. I too much energy and im craving protein. Thats testosterone-based puberty for you. I'm not complaining.

I was actually going to write an entry about faith, religion, atheism and ambivalance, but now I dont feel like it anymore.
So I'm gonna attach a video by Voltaire and hope that you like it.

( the lyrics ^^ )

One month on T today. XD

I havent experienced the hunger thing like many of my friends (i guess it might come), in fact I feel less hungry (im not sure if its because I plan every meal and make sure that I get the right amount of protein etc). I have the energy of a duracell rabbit. Like my friend Karl said "you just keep going and going and going and going" when I decided to bicycle for 15km (after not bicycling longer than 1km for 5 years) and still wanted more when I finished.

And I feel better than Ive ever done in my entire life. I feel so right.
I think starting hormones (or actually, meeting with the gender clinic) is the smartest and best thing Ive done. Ever.

SO NOW IM UP. AT 7:30. BAKING COOKIES TO CELEBRATE.

Kasper told me to read "American Gods" by Neil Gaiman, and I love it. Its fantastic.

oh, testosterone is fun. Next shot in a week and chest surgery on may 28th. :o

-boring-

So. testosterone. I can has it.
And reallyreally  held my hand, cause I was really scared and I thought I was gonna die xD
It didnt that much. I can do this.

I can has puberty!







(oh, and I just realized that my brother Mio's livejournal is called "I said Mio". Interesting. Hah. O_o)

I got Draco Malfoy from drop_down_dead 




1. Do you like this person?
Not really :p Or, I dont know.

2. How do you call this person?
Why would I call Draco? I'd rather send him howlers.

3. Which color do you associate with this person?
Green.

4. Looking at his/her character, what blood type do you think he/she have?
.. pureblood? :P

5. What do you want to tell this person?
Before HBP: Run, run and never come back. After DH: -HUG-

6. What do you want to do with this person: hug, kiss or shake hands?
Neither. :o Or maybe kiss. I'd rather kiss his father. :p

7. Pick three of your friends and pick one person for them:
</a>: Adam Adamant
</a>:  Dr. Manhatten
reallyreally : Moaning Myrtle

I miss Emma and reallyreally  so much.
Hah.

It has only been 2,5 days (since Emma left) and Mikey texted me yesterday.
I'm pathetic (or very bored?)

I think I like text based rps.
A lot.

Ive started reading again.

Well, actually, I never stopped.. I just ignored fiction for a while.
Ive spent the two or three years (wait, maybe longer?) reading nothing but specialist/technical literature (well, voluntarily that is, I had to read Selma Lagerlöf at school). You know, the type of literature that makes uni/college students go "we're like smart. cause we read books that  are thicker than our refrigerator. like yeah!". People should read more specialist/technical literature outside uni/college, when they don't have to think about exams (yes, I do want the whole world to become nerds. Nerds who read specialist literature for fun.. Yes. Yeees). People should read more books. Not just specialist or technical literature. Books are good for you. Seriously.

Aaaaanywaaay, so.. I started reading fiction again last winter (hey, does november still count as fall or is it one of the winter months? hm!) and I'm glad I did. I just finished reading "To kill a mockingbird" by Nelle Harper Lee and "Wide Sargasso Sea" by Jean Rhys, and one day.. one day I'll start analyzing books and SPAM your friends page! I might even refuse to use LJ cut.

I should probably go to bed
before I start threatening people. XD

There's more to life than books, you know
but not much more - The Smiths - Handsome devil

I stole this from nathan_dorian 


What is/was your sexuality like before you realized you were male?
uh, ive always been attracted to people. primarily boyish geeks of all genders.
i suppose i saw myself as a bisexual female, back in the days when I was all "gender binary is the shit yo". Or something.

What is/was your sexuality pre-transition?
Uhm, same as earlier, except now I called myself "queer" or "bi male".
Wait, by pre-transition do they mean "pre-t" also? Cause then, well.. I would say I'm gay now (but then again, when I mean gay, I mean that I'm a boyish geek attracted to other boyish geeks. So basically same as before.).

What is/was your sexuality like mid transition?


What is/was your sexuality like post transition?
Agh!*

Has your sexual preference changed?
Well, Im more comfortable with body, which makes intimate relationships with others.. funnier. (:P)


Do you think your sexuality is different than what it would be if you were cisgendered?
Nope :P

Do you prefer to date heterosexual, bisexual, or homosexual people, and how does that relate to your sexual preference?
I prefer to date people who are boyish and geeky, who likes me because Im boyish and geeky and use the right pronouns. Their gender or sexuality means nothing to me.  :)

* I really dislike the terms pre and post-transition. Agh. I will write another entry later. Im too tired.

[WHINE]

I hate my wisdom teeth. I hate them. So. Much.
I cant chew, I cant swallow or close my mouth properly.
Of course, I might need to lose a few pounds, but I dont think this is the right way to do it.
I need to see a dentist, like.. now.. but I'm afraid of dentists
I was told it would take a year, maybe two.. but my wisdom teeth has tried to kill me like once every three months since I was 18 (and I'll be 22 in december).
AGH.

Sympathy and a hug, please?

[/WHINE]

Stolen from The Jaded Hippy

     BBC Book List

    Apparently the BBC reckons most people will have only read 6 of the 100 books here.
    Instructions: [I've altered these, the old ones made it messy]
    1) Bold those you have read.
    2) *Star the ones you loved.
    3) Italicise those you plan on reading.


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"What if the sorting hat decides that I dont belong in the Ravenclaw House? I only want to hang out with other Ravenclaws. Maybe people from other Houses. If they are smart. oh, and Slytherins, but only because SLYTHERINS HAVE GREAT HAIR ^_____________________^."

/Drik - who is absolutely sure he's not nerdy enough for Expecto Patronum 2009

I finished listening to the Harry Potter books.
What am I supposed to do now? Clean my apartment? ;_;

Someone should write the story from Tom Riddle's point of view.
I'll pretend its my new project - I only want an excuse for reading Tom Riddle/Voldemort fanfics.  xD Oh, and fanfics. I need tips. There are so many sites for fanfiction out there.  *lost* I wonder when I'll start writing stuff .

(Snape and Luna are still my favorites. I wonder if that'll change).

The Thing on the Doorstep by H.P Lovecraft

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It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer. At first I shall be called a madman - madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium. Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than I did after facing the evidence of that horror - that thing on the doorstep.

Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on. Even now I ask myself whether I was misled - or whether I am not mad after all. I do not know - but others have strange things to tell of Edward and Asenath Derby, and even the stolid police are at their wits' ends to account for that last terrible visit. They have tried weakly to concoct a theory of a ghastly jest or warning by discharged servants, yet they know in their hearts that the truth is something infinitely more terrible and incredible.

So I say that I have not murdered Edward Derby. Rather have I avenged him, and in so doing purged the earth of a horror whose survival might have loosed untold terrors on all mankind. There are black zones of shadow close to our daily paths, and now and then some evil soul breaks a passage through. When that happens, the man who knows must strike before reckoning the consequences.

 

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